Striving No More…
What on earth does that even mean?! When you look up the definition of strive, dictionary.com says:
Well, you might as well put my name right in that definition! “i.e. Jennifer Goebbel”…Have you ever found yourself striving? I’ve been striving, probably most of my life. Striving to be a better Christ follower, to be a better wife, to be the best mom I can, to be a great friend…you name it, I’ve probably strived for it.
I recently had months, not of my choosing, where I couldn’t do much. I couldn’t get out of bed some days and wasn’t able to care for my family. I fought…hard. God kept telling me to “Be still” and that “He would fight for me, I need only to be still” [Exodus 14:14]. But, I’ll be honest, I had no idea how to do that. How to let go of everything I held dear, how to trust Him blindly without seeing immediate results, how to rest when all I wanted to do was strive. Strive to get better, strive to get out of bed, strive to do new things each day…but I couldn’t. Day after day my goals went unmet.
And the funny thing was, I had just taught a women’s retreat on this very thing. Trusting God when you aren’t seeing results. I had that very freshly written on my heart…Joshua and the Israelites, they marched around that wall for 7 days…they obeyed, but they didn’t see results until they fully obeyed [Joshua 6]. And this proved to be no different for me.
I learned a lot. And I think the most important thing I learned was…we all have a time to live and a time to die, here on this earth. [if we have Christ, we have the promise we will live eternally!] And I want to meet Jesus one day being completely poured out for Him. Having given myself all away for the sake of the Gospel, for the Kingdom of Heaven…Giving myself away for my family and for others to know true love, to know my Jesus.
Thus, this blog. This is one way I am going to give myself away. It’s honestly like giving a piece of my heart away, lol. I know that may sound silly…but each time I write, I’m giving away a piece of me, but even better, a piece of Jesus. It’s my goal in life, to share Christ with as many people as possible. To live having given ALL, because He has given His all.